A Personal Touch

I don't like to share too much online, or in fact at all. But as you know i am getting married (in less than 3 months-EEK!) and it really ahs made me think about things.

I was brought up mostly by my grandparents who sadly are no longer with us, it would have made my wedding day complete to have my Papa walk me down the aisle. 

So i decided i wanted him to be there in some way or another- it really hurts to think he will be missing this.

I have done a little research online, and it appears to be common to wish to include those we have lost in the day. Many mention these lost love ones in the speech- something i hope to do if i can keep it together (not looking likely at the moment!), while others have created a table designed to commemorate the loved ones.

Some brides use their bouquets to make it feel like their loved ones are walking them down the aisle, by using charms attatched to the flowers. I really love this idea and think its subtle but beautiful.

I considered this idea and in the end decided it was not for me. Instead today i got my Papa's initials tattooed on my body. It was hard to choose where to place it, i love tattoos but i always said i would place them on me in places where i can hide them if need be, or show them if i chose too. However i wanted these initials to be viewable on the day, so i have chosen the top of my shoulder blade. I got a little teary after having it done, knowing that my Pops will be physically with me on the day. To add to the personal touch, i spend months reading old letters and postcards to find his initials in his own handwriting, so that i could have his own writing tattooed instead of a regular font.

So here was the design- and i am thrilled. As soon as i got in the car to go home a song came on my music system which really summed up how i have been feeling about him and my Ma (grandma) lately.

I've been needing you lately

When the sun goes down

I don't know where to find you

So, I just drive around

I feel like a stranger in this place

I want to see your face

I've been needing you

I've been needing you lately

I've been missing you lately

Things just aren't the same

All I'm feeling is lonely

Sometimes I call out your name

I want so bad to believe

Somehow you can hear me

I've been missing you

I've been missing you lately

So i apologise for this post- it is not my usual style, but something i felt needed sharing.

Thank you for reading

Kayla

xxx